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Saturday, February 03, 2001
Beloit--where you at?? Before people start fucking mike up because of the last post, it's stolen from temptation island. That's right, you thought you were all that didn't you mike?! The only people who I could think of to fit into those names were kelly's boyfriend and billy healy and then I read the 2 out of four brothers thing and I was all "is he talking about me?!" yeah...anyways. Montreal is going good (well--whatever man) now. I visited my old lady friend today, Marie, and we had a good time. She gave me a gold rose pin for christmas and we went out to coffee and she bought two bingo scratch cards for us. Sometimes I fear that we will both get knocked upside the head because she mocks the French all the time in public, but we never do.
At the end of Dancer in the Dark, I could barely walk out of the fucking theatre I was so drained of emotion.
Also, looks like Margaret, the allergic conservative roommate, may be getting more ass than I will soon. Fuck man. Even my old lady friend was like "do you have a boyfriend?" today and I had to hang my head and be like "he he he no..." Speaking of people I would do (wha?) I would so do Mos Def.
Karen---do not read the following!
Dear readers, today is Karen's 19th birthday, call 541.713.5400 and wish her a lil' some'in. She's probably having some "session" somewhere...Karen, are you laughing at this right now?! Oh man, you had to read it didn't you?! huh?!
Courtney--yeah, carla told me about being in your cognition group and she said she felt like an ass not knowing you and I thought to myself 'huh, fancy that--you felt like an ass, huh?'
Francie and Mary--thanks! you guys are really sweet. I'm out of that bullshit now, it was good to hear from other people.
America's Sweetheart--by shutup I meant one love!
posted by Record Album
@ 16:28
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Mike--what the fuck??? Who the fuck are you all of a sudden?
posted by Record Album
@ 09:53
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Basically, Kurt, this is what is going on:
Billy’s pissed cause he finally realized that his girlfriend is a good for nothin whore. Bitches! Now where was I, oh yeah, something about how all women are whores, who ruin your life and sleep with your best friend and 2 of your 4 brothers and then they steal your stereo along with all your CD’s including the ##### she doesn’t even listen to like NOFX and The Sex Pistols and ............uhmmmm, remind me to delete that before I post this, just a little bit of a tangent there.
Okay, back to the big show, let’s see, Billy’s pissed, Mandy sucks, so Billy does what any red blooded American would do........runs straight to Big Bird’s cabana for a wild threesome with BB and Snuffalufagus (If anyone tells me that I misspelled that, ##### you). I mean, have you taken a good look at that Vanessa broad...the only reason she wears a cowboy hat is cause it’s the only hat (besides a full out sombrero) that will provide shade for that deformed mound on her face she sometimes calls her nose.
So basically, as usual on this piece of crap show, NOTHING HAPPENS.
Oh, and everyone totally should see Dancer in the Dark. I highly highly recommend it.
posted by rayve nation
@ 00:54
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Friday, February 02, 2001
I just saw dancer in the dark. Beautiful and real and pure
I cried a lot
posted by Record Album
@ 21:16
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ahhh...four a.m.
lately, my life has turned into this huge exercise in patience (or is it futility, i cant tell anymore) and i love every wasteful second of it.
i dont know what happened, but at this moment, for the first time ever, i feel like i wont be alone forever. what a concept.
there's a guy who works on the 5th floor who asks me how i am doing whenever i see him. i always answer with my typical, "im good, how are you?" and he always answers back, "blessed". everytime i think, man, that's what i should be saying too.
i am beyond words tonight. i am overflowing with hope. i had no idea that when i was repeating to myself over and over again, "everything's gonna be alright", trying desperately to convince myself of it, that i would eventually not need to be convinced anymore.
everything bad in my head - wires, fuses, dark chase scenes, scrambled images, whirring noises, muffled voices - all disappeared. it's like insanity just slipped off my brain. i felt it coming. i felt a wave approaching.
i learn it again and again - everything is as it should be.
posted by vic
@ 04:19
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Thursday, February 01, 2001
Steph- got your letter today, thanks! but uh, I'm still having trouble believing you when you say you are not on drugs. (that's not necessarily a bad thing :) love ya!
posted by K-Lo
@ 20:45
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That a former owner whose team once traded Sammy Sosa could rise to the most powerful office in the world is rather extraordinary given that fans generally lump team owners somewhere below child pornographers and just above telephone solicitors and local cable company directors.
— Jim Caple, on Presidental candidate and former Texas Rangers owner George W. Bush
posted by K-Lo
@ 16:55
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I have three things to tell you.
One, my roommate alicia's sister is good friends with the guy who created blogger! crazy, eh?
Two, I know this girl shauna, who is very upset with her roomates racism. Listen to this--so the roommate, let's call her alice because I don't know her name, sees the movie "Save the Last Dance" and decides that she is going to "get herself a black guy". So she goes to this club and gets with this guy on the dance floor, even giving him a hand job on the dance floor. (no joke, it's a trashy place like that). They're making out all night and she gives him her number, but after he starts calling her, she's all "no way man" about him. (cue the racism) She is now afraid to see black people in public, because she is convinced that they will tell the guy she hooked up with that they saw her!!! Wha??? People like this still exist?!
Three, You guys have to play this game--it kicks ass. It's called Guess the Evil Dictator or TV Sit-com character. Great game.
posted by Record Album
@ 16:20
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I'm the same as I was when I was 6 years old
And oh my God I feel so damn old
I don't really feel anything
On a plane, I can see the tiny lights below
And oh my God, they look so alone
Do they really feel anything?
Oh my God, I've gotta gotta gotta gotta move on
Where do you move when what you're moving from
Is yourself?
The universe works on a math equation
that never even ever really ends in the end
Infinity spirals out creation
We're on the tip of its tongue, and it is saying
We aint sure where you stand
You aint machines and you aint land
And the plants and the animals, they are linked
And the plants and the animals eat each other
Oh my God and oh my cat
I told my Dad what I need
Well I don't want to have and want
But I don't know what I need
Well, he said he said he said he said
"Where we're going I'm dead."
posted by rayve nation
@ 00:41
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Tuesday, January 30, 2001
contrary to popular belief, i have not disappeared off the face of the earth.
i just wrote a massive thing and blogger erased it all so now im mad and will not write it again.
today as i was driving down canfield i noticed a young man on the side of the road wearing a light blue sweater and waving his arms whilst on a cellphone in a very peculiar yet familar manner. as i drove by i tried to get a better glance and immediately recognized the pin-head and oafish gait to be that of john klaes, first ex-boyfriend and altar boy extraordinaire. i turned around to drive by again and confirm my suspicions and realized that he was standing outside his old house from early childhood which had recently been painted blue. i only know it's his old house because one time when i was in his car he pointed it out and i remember thinking the notion of having an old house as very romantic and semi-tortured (this kid was so damn boring i had to make up drama for him). so i stared him down really hard and we did lock eyes but he totally didnt recognize me and then when i went to pull over and say hello he disappeared. what?
my mom hates my therapist for strange reasons that she thinks i know. we got in a weird skirmish over it and she said, "oh, we both know what you're doing" and, "oh i think we both know the reasons" (what reasons? for what?), but she was wrong both times because i had NO idea what she was talking about either time.
i found a really weird thing today in a bunch of old papers from when i was 9 and it's creeping me out. i think i might have been an extremely strange kid and it's resurfacing hardcore...oh wait, it never really went away.
ok, i bore of this. goodnight, i love you and will talk to you all soon.
posted by vic
@ 22:25
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contrary to popular belief, i have NOT disappeared off the face of the earth.
i had a bunch of stuff i wanted to write earlier but i just got in a fight with my mom and now i cant remember them. i know it had something to do with loving and trusting yourself and blah blah blah. so you can go ahead and put a little story to go along with that theme if you want.
in other news: i got a haircut and a nice new obsession about solving the mystery that is my childhood. i cant explain it, just know that when youre by yourself for long periods at a time you can go places in your head you never knew possible.
i keep finding things all over from when i was a little kid and they're all really creepy. it kinda comforts me to know that i really havent changed at all since i was born, but i did thought about some really bizarre things when i was little. in comparison to the stuff i write about now, ive basically been telling myself the same thing since i could write. i just wonder when im finally going to listen. this one strange paper i came across did bother me a bit. it was stuck in this trapperkeeper filled with fake students homework from when i would play school with my stuffed animals. im a little embarassed to transcribe it on here but it's making me feel really strange and i dont know where else to communicate that. anyway, the top of the paper says "inner strength chart" and underneath are these catagories:
silver star - having a good or funny dream and telling it
gold star - having a bad dream and telling how you got over it
- 16 pts. - going to wake mommy up and doing it
silver and red star - going to daddy instead of going to mommy
silver and goldstar - going to wake mommy up but not doing it
green star - sick
no star - sleeping through the night
then at the bottom written in what was my best handwriting at the time is, "Remember You Can Do It You Have Inner Strength"
the date on it says Jan. 4, 1991. i have no recollection of making this up but finding it made me remember that i used to have horrible nightmares and have to wake myself up. they got so bad that it started this strange OCD behavior in my waking life that i would have to do strange things like tap the last two keys of the piano and rub this toy soldier's head and step on specific places of the stairs everytime i would have to go up the stairs. i finally told my mom i had to do all these things (for what, i dont know) and she kinda freaked out and thought that maybe she should take me to a shrink but instead she started in on this crazy inner strength campaign and how i could either go to a therapist or rely on myself.
posted by vic
@ 22:13
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Yer dead, mister! Ah, well....now that Vicki isn't crazy anymore I guess she has nothing to write about. Maybe I'll go crazy for the sake of this web page, or maybe I'll just go krazy for the hell of it. Either way, This Charming Man by the smiths is such a good song. back to my English paper...
posted by rayve nation
@ 19:14
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looks like this thing is dead
posted by Record Album
@ 19:10
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Monday, January 29, 2001
Hmm. No, thanks.
posted by egeus
@ 22:44
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Dear Vicki Lee,
Have you disappeared off the face of this earth?
Please check one
Yes___
No ___
posted by Record Album
@ 16:44
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